It is a safe place
but also feels like a cage
I see you changing
I wonder why you speak so loudly
and say the things you say
Countless nights have I spent awake
and long drives have I spent absent minded
on little things you say
and little things you do
I do not want to lose you while we’re both still here
You are always tired
but will only admit it
when you’ve already reached your last strength
why are you so worried
about things you cannot change
you even insist you either will or have to die
I don’t want to lose you
while we’re both still here.
I want you to stay, but not become who you are becoming.
The heavens have sent me a note.
that it is okay
that we’ll be okay
But I still get scared
when I have to repeat myself time and time again.
I prayed a prayer about the next generation
that I want them to be full grown before you go
But I know
nothing can be for sure
except that I don’t want to lose you.
But there is nothing I can do