You know there are things I want to say to you
Do to you
That I can’t.
I won’t allow myself to (do so).
You should not have to know that I want to
With my hands
Into your past
To clutch that piece of the sky
That fluid feeling about the air
That you have made me glance at today.
You should not have to feel that
My heart wants to pound its way out into your brains
My throat wants to regurgitate the blessings you have once nibbled on but couldn’t get yourself to swallow.
Can’t get myself to show
This is what I know.
You need me.
Through all the things that I am going through. I want to teach you.
You can live free. Outside the abyss.
You. You can.
But I don’t want it for you. Without me.